The last couple of months has been very harsh. I have been very stress during the whole driving lesson and that led me nowhere but being unhealthy. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat. The only thing that comes to my mind is “I’m scared, I’m worried, I’m nervous!”. Everyday, I struggled with this kind of scenario which I know for the others might seem a little bit exaggerated and over-dramatic. Well, it is what it is!
I also been having a huge meltdown every night, which worries my husband. I have been crying while watching this TV show “Parenthood”, and I don’t know the reason of why I cried. My husband doesn’t know exactly what to do and how to help me. Deep inside, I knew I am just missing my family back in the Philippines.
After the whole driving thing; after I succeeded, the only thing in my head right now is “I am too grateful that I have a very supportive and understanding husband”. I can’t imagine how will I be right now, without him by my side during this time. Maybe I am lost already, and wouldn’t be able to find my way back. I can’t think of anything else but being grateful, of everything he’s done for me. It must have been very hard for him to handle stress from work, and handle my meltdown at the same time.
I am thankful that he’s my husband and he really never complain about anything. He just listen and find the way on how to help me as much as he can. The meltdown thing was huge, and every time we think about it, we couldn’t stop laughing.
I have lost weight from 43.8 kilos right back down to 40.7 kilos. A lot, I know! All my pants started hanging and I needed belt in order to wear them. I looked so unhealthy, I had chopped lips, my face got thinner, my arms got a little weaker, and almost everything doesn’t seem to look good anymore. (It got better right after I passed the practical driving)
My husband is just great! Every day, when I am all alone and thinking about how patient he is, how awesome he managed to take good care of me, even in fact I should be the one to take care of him. (Well, I was really nonfunctional) He is just awesome!!
Well, to my husband,
Thank you so so much for being there during the very huge meltdown in my life. I can’t thank you enough for being so understanding, and supportive of me. Thanks for encouraging me to finish the driving thing, if it weren’t you then I don’t think I will ever succeed. So thank you so much and I promise to be healthy again. No more crying like insane (Hopefully) 😀 I love you so much!!!